Well here I am a few months on from when
I last visited or did any work on the website, trying to get on with my life but battling against the MS doesn't make it any
easier to do that.
I am attempting to do my final year at
University. After 8 years been away from studying doesn't make it any easier. Let alone going back to doing the final year
of a degree course.
I am taking the year over 2 years and
on a part time basis. I am only doing 6 hours per week with 2 hours of library time built into that and I am fighting. I am
coming home tired, ready to drop. I am behind on the reading that I am supposed to be doing and just want to go to sleep throughout
the afternoon which doesn't help me get any reading or work done in preperation for the following week.
I am thinking about dropping a module
which will ease the pressure a little for me as both the other 2 modules that I am doing have got a exam just after christmas.
My advice to anyone thinking about going
back into something after a long period of time away is for you not to without some very careful consideration and take it
easy when you do.
The thing about completeing a degree course
after a 8 year break is that you are having to try and remember things that you learned 8 or 10 years ago, and it isn't easy.
However, I don't regret it one little
bit. The only thing is before I started back at University I found that I was losing the way I thought, couldn't think of
words and couldn't spell. I was forgetting everything, my brain was dieing or at least that is how it felt to me. I just wanted
to get my mind working again and although, it took time, especially getting back into keeping up with the lectures, that was
particularly hard. Every lecture seemed to be going far too fast for me to keep up, and whenever I began to write something
down, I had forgotton what I was writing before I got to the end of the sentence. Not only that but by the time you try and
think what it was you were going to write, the lecture is alot further on and you seemed to have missed half of what they
were saying.
After 8 weeks I am just starting to be able to follow
the lecture as it goes on as long as it isn't a fast speaking lecturer. I am just starting to get my head around things that
it should have been around weeks ago.
I have had to put twice the amount of reading in then
you would normally because I have been trying to get my head around it all again. Instead of it taking me 2 hours to read
about something in a text book, it takes me 4 - 6 hours or longer.
